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hold your head high
[hockey rps, brandon dubinsky/nikolai zherdev, g, 260 words]

on 01/10/09, Brandon Dubinsky ended a 20-game goal drought. I suspect there was much celebration. originally written in an email to [livejournal.com profile] fryadvocate, who immediately demanded more. probably meant more than just 100 words more, but beggars can't be choosers. :P



Just one goal, but it had been his first in twenty, and Brandon can feel the weight of that, of that overbearing stat, slip off his shoulders. He feels lighter all over. Lit up all over, like he can set the whole world ablaze if he wants. He remembers Jags telling him once, "All you need is confidence, and you can do anything you want."

He remembers Avery telling him the same thing, but for very different reasons.

Brandon shakes his head, shakes free of the memory, of the weight, of his goal-scoring drought. Paulie walks by and swipes at his head, congratulating him, and Brandon ducks, laughs. His grin widens as he looks around the locker room, at everyone joking and smiling, getting ready for the trip back home and paying him no attention.

Everyone except for Z, who looks quickly away when Brandon catches him staring. It's not the first time it's happened, and Brandon's been caught himself plenty of times. Furtive glances like a game of Mouse and Mouse that are never-ending, never go anywhere.

But tonight...tonight he's got adrenaline and electricity buzzing through his veins. It flows through him, pumps him up and revs everything inside. He feels unstoppable, invincible, like the king of the world.

Confidence, whispers the two voices inside his head, one strong and encouraging, the other soft and demanding. Brandon takes the word, wears it like a crown. Nicky smiles at him, an invitation written in the curve of his lips, and Brandon gets to his feet and goes to him.




thank you for reading!

Date: 2009-01-13 04:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/__tiana__/
HOO BOY, um. THAT was rather hot, dear. The hints of what is to come made me totally tingly.

Mmm, HOCKEY BOYS. ♥

Date: 2009-01-14 07:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
eeee! I am kind of ridiculously thrilled that you read this and liked it. and, yes. HOCKEY BOYS. mmm.

Date: 2009-01-13 04:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladyaugustana.livejournal.com
He remembers Avery telling him the same thing, but for very different reasons. Wait I'm sorry, this was Brandon/Nikolai? My mind was totally taken over by the Sean reference. OTP of mine, (granted, a twisted one but...) what can I say. ;)

I do love these two together though and this was just lovely.
Edited Date: 2009-01-13 05:20 am (UTC)

Date: 2009-01-14 07:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
ahahahaha! oh man, last year Avery/Dubinsky was totally my serious/not-so-serious OTP. Not enough that I would write fic about them, but enough that I may have come up with a completely ridiculous and melodramatic storyline about them that may or may not have included mpreg. :X

and, YAY! Thank you so much!

Date: 2009-01-13 04:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] offside.livejournal.com
i love the way you use words; they're so poetic and flowy (that might sound retarded, idk). i always really love the sentence structure of yoru fics and this: Nicky is still smiling, an invitation written in the curve of his lips, and Brandon gets to his feet and goes to him.
sigh :))

great work, as always.

Date: 2009-01-14 07:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
ahh, thank you so so much! Word choice and structure is something I put a lot of thought into, so it is a HUGE compliment to hear that it worked for you. I am all a-blush! Thank you!

Date: 2009-01-13 04:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jess-the1.livejournal.com
Awww, I am vey happy for Dubi.

Dubi and Niky are very cute. SOme many ideas of what could happen next.

Loved it.

Date: 2009-01-14 07:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
They really are kind of ridiculously cute together. It fills my heart with glee. Thank you!

Date: 2009-01-13 04:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cpexplosion.livejournal.com
Gah! Aboslutely lovely! Any chance you'll be continuing this?
Awesome job! ^^

Date: 2009-01-14 07:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
Thank you! and I don't think there'll be any continuation of this story, but I do plan on writing more of these two. :D

Date: 2009-01-13 06:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] girl-wonder.livejournal.com
WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT THEM. I really, really love how you write Dubi. Like a lot a lot a lot.

Date: 2009-01-14 07:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
Because they are so good to me? I don't know, I just love them. :D

<333

Date: 2009-01-13 09:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] littlestclouds.livejournal.com
Gah, this is so delightful.

He feels lighter all over. Lit up all over, like he can set the whole world ablaze if he wants.

I LOVE that. So, so much.

He remembers Jags telling him once, "All you need is confidence, and you can do anything you want."

He remembers Avery telling him the same thing, but for very different reasons.


That was awesome. I liked the contrast between Jagr's advice and Avery's.

Confidence, whispers the two voices inside his head, one strong and encouraging, the other soft and demanding.

I kind of love that he hears their voices in his head. XD
Brandon takes the word, wears it like a crown. Nicky is still smiling, an invitation written in the curve of his lips, and Brandon gets to his feet and goes to him.

I really liked that. A lot. And I think I just quoted your entire fic back at you. Whups.

I really enjoy how you write your boys. o/\o

Date: 2009-01-14 07:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
And I think I just quoted your entire fic back at you.

ahahaha! well, it's not like there was much fic to begin with. :P

and thank you so so much for the lovely feedback! I have such ridiculous amounts of affection for these two boys, so if any of that comes out in my writing and makes others enjoy them, I am beyond thrilled.

Date: 2009-01-13 11:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] antheia.livejournal.com
So much love! That was awesome.

Date: 2009-01-13 04:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] honeymull.livejournal.com
*deletes any Dubi/Zherdev currently hiding in Word documents*

There just isn't any point. You've completed them.

(It was incredibly hard not to just squeal out loud and keysmash repeatedly for feedback. Seriously. So hard.)

Date: 2009-01-14 07:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! The world *needs* more of them. Lots and lots and LOTS more of them. :D

<333

Date: 2009-01-14 07:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] glockgal.livejournal.com
Furtive glances like a game of Mouse and Mouse that are never-ending, never go anywhere.

WHY IS THIS SO HOT. WHY. I DON'T KNOW, BUT ESPECIALLY WITH THE ENDING, IT JUST. I'M LIKE. GNUUUHHHHHHHH. YOU GO, BRANDON. YOU TAKE YOUR NICKY HOME. \o/ \o/ \o/

Date: 2009-01-14 07:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
It's hot because they are. GUH GUH GUH. OH BOYS. I wish I had more money to go to more games and witness them be flirty goobers with one another more often. SIGH SIGH.

YOU GO, BRANDON. YOU TAKE YOUR NICKY HOME.

I did tell you that they live in the same building, right? XD
Edited Date: 2009-01-19 07:29 am (UTC)

Date: 2009-01-19 03:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mickeymvt.livejournal.com
*sings* Someone's gonna get some...

That last line is a killer- so much anticipation in such few words.

Date: 2009-01-19 09:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
*sings* Someone's gonna get some...

and HOW! XD

Thank you so much!

Date: 2009-01-19 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sheesusnat.livejournal.com
...Oh, this is very, very good.

Lit up all over, like he can set the whole world ablaze if he wants.

Someone else mentioned this, but I LOVE THIS LINE. Absolutely love it, gets the point across WONDERFULLY.

I enjoy this pairing SO much, and you write them very well. Very nicely done!

Date: 2009-01-19 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
oh, thank you so so much! I kind of love them a ridiculous amount, and I love writing them, so it's good to know others are enjoying them as well. :D

Date: 2009-01-24 03:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jennyagain.livejournal.com
i love all the little pockets of contrast in this short piece - the difference in the same words of advice from jags and avery, the difference in how brandon intends to put that advice into play, the exuberance of the locker room and the quiet game of Mouse and Mouse continuing amidst it all, the sweet slide from renewed confidence on the ice to confidence in the locker room.

love this best of all: Brandon takes the word, wears it like a crown. such a great way to explain that feeling, such a great lead into that fabulous closing image.

awesome.

Date: 2009-01-26 04:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
oh wow, thank you so much! I'm seriously just sitting here, all, 'omg somebody else liked my fic YAY!' - I may be a bit of a dork. Thank you again for reading! :D

Date: 2010-04-16 08:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] honeymull.livejournal.com
Hi. I'm going through your hockey fic tag and I've decided that these 260 words need to be cross-stitched into a blanket so I can wrap it around me whenever I want to feel happy and fuzzy-warm.

Hmmm.

Date: 2010-04-21 05:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cathybites.livejournal.com
y'know, I've been meaning to take up cross-stitching again...

:P

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